the queen of ugly face
loves -
FOOD
her roxybaby!
gerrard!
jielun!
rollerblading
ficticious wan mei nan ren
pau skin
cheese cake
sweet and sour stuff
baking
is wobbly
bobbly
and makes the ugliest faces and sounds
Saturday, August 05, 2006
.f o p
fop was great! really enjoyed myself though iw as like damn dead towards the end of it. . CCC worship! :) plus my mummy's favourite don moen.
it was suppsoed to end on on a high note. not like this.
my dad found out i went. and gave me a huugee lecture on like religion. and how he hopes my religion would not be different from his. and how i would make a decision that would make him happy, sacrifice personal things that you want to not cause your parents (dad) anger..
so as not to disrupt the family where the family is like a small boat. if one wants to swim, the other wants to row. it'd get nowhere and cost much confusion internal strife and other whatnot.
my dad has held these beliefs since he was like 20, and it's going to be so difficult to wear them down. but nothing is impossible with Christ!
:( am reallyreally sad now. please pray for me that my dad would be open and let me seek God. and like help me and my mummy stay strong during this period or time
as for now..i really don't know what to do
do i stand up now and fight and say im going to be a Christian no matter what, or lay low in fear of my dad throwing a book at me or something.
my dad..hai. he really takes filial piety to a whole new level..
i guess i kinda have myself to blame, but i saw this coming. sooner or later my dad would just find out.
i just don't want my dad to get angry wwith my mum and take it out on her.
:( am sad and worried and scared about what's to come. but my Lord will carry me through. i believe he'll deliver me out of this persecution.
i'm so tired of sliding back in and out. i need to stay as committed and convicted as i can.
jiayou!
superdugong out! ; .
