the queen of ugly face
loves -
FOOD
her roxybaby!
gerrard!
jielun!
rollerblading
ficticious wan mei nan ren
pau skin
cheese cake
sweet and sour stuff
baking
is wobbly
bobbly
and makes the ugliest faces and sounds
Sunday, November 12, 2006
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i wish i could say i'm happy
but i cant.
i wish i could proudly tell you im living a fulfiling, satisfying, validating life.
but i cant.
it sucks, really
this feeling
all that's happening
to feel so small and so useless
just lil ol me
rotting away to nothingness
unsubstantiated
unimportant
unneeded
and i wish i could stop myself from feeling this way
but again. dum dum dummmm.
i cant
and i hate it tt i cant
why must i be like this?
to feel like this?
think like this?
act like this?
stupid, silly silly me.
you have yourself to blame
im done pretending im happy
don;t mind stuff
just happy to sit around
to wait around.
i need real love in my life
[and i dont mean boygirl love]
care
pple tt give a hoot
its nice you know,
simple, small things .
tt can do so much
tt make me feel better
and a little more justified to be alive.
but it's alright.
its always the loudest and happiest looking
that hurt the most.
your fault, yilin.
not even cooking helped.
misoglazedcod was very nice though
rarrr
superdugong out! ; .
