dah dum

2007-07-30T11:09:00.000+08:00

i love this song.
old schoool <33

夜已深
还有什麽人
让你这样醒着数伤痕
为何临睡前会想要留一盏灯
你若不肯说
我就不问
只是你现在不得不承认
爱情有时候是一种沈沦
让人失望的虽然是恋情本身
但是不要只是因为你是女人
若爱得深
会不能平衡
为情困折磨了灵魂
该爱就爱
该恨的就恨
要为自己保留几分
女人独有的天真
和温柔的天分
要留给真爱你的人
不管未来多苦多难
有他陪你完成
虽然爱是种责任
给要给得完整
有时爱美在无法永恒
爱有多销魂
就有多伤人
你若勇敢爱了就要勇敢分
DivShare File - 《伤痕》.wma

2007-07-23T21:27:00.000+08:00

it sucks

to feel ugly
to feel not good enough
to feel..just so inadequate

so mediocre

its making me sick
and im letting myself get stuck in reverse

pretend
try

and always fall short
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i need you .

2007-07-14T11:14:00.000+08:00

my best friends n icecream
what more can i ask for? <33>

i bet u missed me

will be setting up a recipe/baking blog soon
to sell my..delicious but not so palatable-looking grub :)
do support me okay ^^

btw changed my phone no. sexy new phone! =)

happy birthday, you.

2007-06-01T19:33:00.000+08:00

testing

2007-05-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

2007-05-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

2007-01-04T20:37:00.000+08:00

hello!
im at my cousins' house now.. but i cant use for more than 10 min >.<
so a quick update!
i lost my camera!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay my dad's camera. i DIDNT MEAN IT. i swear i put it into my bag. it fell out of an imaginary hole i tell you..
brought my cousins rachel joie and qixian to watch charlotte's web. really fun cos they're super cute!
so basically. life's not been too rosy at home. aiya
im lazy to duo shuo also...just been feeling really shitty and i really need stuff to take my mind off everyth tt's going on ):
im still in holiday mood im a little scared. heng my bday is early so i can celebrate properly before the work really starts to pile up.
ommy i have to go alr.
permutations and combinations awaits.
rarr. >.<

2006-12-26T21:34:00.000+08:00

on xmas eve just to get in the festive mood,
my sis dad mum and i made gingerbread men!
super cute. and OF COURSE YUMMY i tell you
nothing beats a warm mug of milk and gingerbread cookies on a cold rainy day.

MMM. xing fu man.

the blue one is superman. so cute right! my dad make wan
bikini babe!
spot the blonde

and my kor kor and jingshan, my wei lai da sao, bought me this for xmas!

<333>

wahlau inside got peking duck recipe can.

NIEHHAHAHA.

anw. im stitchless now! wahlau it was quite painful la, but damn cool removing stitches on the dining table :)

i miss them alr. ):

still dunno when i can start trng. but should be soon yay!

2006-12-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

the cat mama. see the black kitten that kept drinking her milk!!

babies!

super cute. the cat mama's real kid
one week old ones!

miaomiaos me and sher found at the chalet. okay i was cameraman. but i did carry themokay! warm and eyes still closed and superrrr cute.
<3>

2006-12-25T18:13:00.000+08:00

look what i found!
my old autograph book!

stop laughing.
so i liked oops i did it again

time to update a bit ya?
haha

here goes;

name; tan yilin. chen yilin
bday; 3rd feb 1989
addie; 1 tanyilin lane
tellie; 9066...im sure.
horoscope; aquarius
chinese zodiac; dragon cos im cool.
email; yilinn@gmail.com, youkneadit@gmail.com [for cake stuff orders!]
hobbies; rollerblading, jamieoliver, cooking shows on tv, tv, baking, cooking, grocery shopping, shopping
bloodtype; o+ i think.
nickname; tellyou i no nickname alr. my dad calls me smallone

favo's!

teacher; ms chuah? she takes all my econs nonsense <3>

subject; bio i guess

animal; dog! i like white tigers and baby seals!

tv show; grey's, cooking shows! proj runway, jeff corwin shows <3>

song; loads! fa ru xue

singer; loads too..jielun <3>

band; you know what, i still boybands! haha old love songs rock.

movie; chick flicks!

drink; tehping. strawberry milk. horlicks dinosaur. milo dinosaur. ice peach tea. green tea. green tea frappe from starbucks. hot choc. hot vanilla

food; okay brace urself!

japanese food!

salmon

my miso baked cod

chicken

bao and skin

fruits

strawberries

strawberry anything

ma lai gao

cranberries

almonds, cashews, brasils, pecans, walnuts.

salted chinese restaurant steamed peanuts

japanese crackers

strawberry pocky

cheese

cheesecake

onions

eggs. i really like all kinds of eggs.

souffles

rasins

daiyaki! custard AND angdow

japanese soft bread.

hot toasted bread

gingerbreadmen

brocolli

tomatoes

baked mushrooms.

,ushrooms

meh kueh

mee suah

quiches

spinach and veggies

i like carrot

gao luk roasted chestnuts

okay enough for now.

hato's

teacher; erm.

subject; its not i dont like it, but i dont get it! econs

animal; mosquitoes, cockroaches, toads, house lizards. flies. i dont like insects la. and birds tt shit on me too

tv show; ch 8 drams. they suck now!

song; erm, dont have i think..though some really get on my nerves

singer; cyndi wang. she SUCKS. guo meimei also irritating

band; santanic ones

movie; dont have i guess.

i shant do a friends page tt's just tacky

2006-12-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

i have a sad xmas eve. packign my stuff for the big move away from my home for 17 years.

im bored now so!

3 things in your wallet?
1. photos from dance night
2. atm card. even thoguht my bank has no money ):
3. letter from laura <3

3 things you always wear?
1. underwear
2. earrings
3. i used to always wear this necklace susanta gave me

3 things you do when you are really stressed?
1. talk
2. omg eat like mad
3. make lists. and get more stressed >.<

3 10 things you like to do?
1. cook/bake
2. cut hair
3. eat
4. watch tv
5. shopping with my sister
6. look at pictures
7. get facial
8. get a massage
9. go for nice family dinners
10. GROCERY SHOPPING :)

3 favorite fruits?
1. strawberries! i like berries.
2. soft pears
3. green apples?
i like almost all fruits la

3 things you are addicted to?
1. raw, almonds cashews brazils walnuts hazelnuts pecans. yum!
2. japanese brand anything
3. dried fruits

3 favorite hobbies?
1. rollerblading
2. eating
3. baking

3 goals for 2007?
1. yao xing fu
2. start m business
3. be so smart i'll get handpicked to not study and get paid for the rest of my life. dream on right!

3 plans for next 3 weeks?
1. finish holiday homework
2. finish my packing sobbb
3. go out

3 nicknames you go by:
1. yilin
2. yilin
3. yilin
i dont have nicknames leh! my name liddat how to have nickname
maybe auntie

3 Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. sec 1 orientation tshirt
2. fbts with holes in them cos my maid wento iron
3. old rings from like pri sch because i was clearing jewellery

3 things you want in a relationship:
1. love
2. respect, trust, appreciation
3. fun and funniness

3 5 things about the opposite sex that appeal to you:
1. taller than me.
2. dui wo hao
3. good sense of humour
4. xiao shun!
5. will like the stuff i make

2006-12-23T01:31:00.000+08:00

shui bu zhao

koped from cheryl (<3)'s blog

1. Ever been given a ring? yes.
2. Longest relationship? define relationship. my best friend has been my best friend since pri 5
3. Last gift you received? erm. mu4 ma2 earrings and ba hu stick from bangkok from mabeline
4. How many times have you dropped your cell? enough for it to spoil and send random msges to pple
5. Last sport you played? vball..last monday.
6. Things you spend a lot of money on? food. and groceries! its really therapeutic.
7. Thing you ate last? dinner. i cooked.
8. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? yan jing, bi zi i think. height maybe.
9. One favorite song? fa ru xue. it has my chi name in it. fine only yi but still...
10. Where do you live? 1 tanyilin lane.
11. Last relationship? so?
12. Cell phone service provider? starhub. which sucks.
13. Favorite mall store? coldstorage.okay la i have a life. kino?
14. Longest job held? cafe cartel one month! "hi welcome!"
15. Do you own a pair of dice? i guess..mahjong set somewhere in the cupboard
16. Do you prank call people? ive done it before.
17. Last person who text messaged you? shinjung for coach claim form
18. First FRIEND you'd call if you won a lottery? mabeline!
19. Last time you attended church? 2 wks ago
20. Favorite fast food restaurant? i think. its still macs. i lvoe macs breakfast. mos burger's not bad too.
21. Last incoming call? mabeline
22. Last time you got drunk? does laughing a lot count?
23. Where's your favorite place to eat with friends? foodcourt. ditto, cheryl!
24. Can you cook? i like to think i can ^^
25. What car do you drive? i dont think i'll ever drive. i cant make turns for nuts.
26. Last time u cried? 20 mins ago?
27. Most hated food? erm. livers. they taste like mud.
28. Thing you like most about yourself? erm. my ankles
29. Things you hate most about yourself? dont get me started.
30. Last time you had an argument? cant rmb! maybe my sister like over smth stupid.
31. Favorite Movie? erm. i like armaggedon. dont have a fav i guess.
32. Name all the races of the people that you've been with? let's see..stevengerrard is angmoh..wonbin is korean...
33. Last movie rented? devil wears prada tt i din watch
34. Favorite alcoholic drinks? dont drink enough to have a fav
35. Favorite perfume? im kinda allergic to perfume..at least i was. dunno abt now 36. What are you thinking at the moment? i hate the way im feeling
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45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone..

whats your name spelt backwards? niliy
What did you do last night?: watch bai wan bao at vball chalet ate pizza and watched pro pple play ps2
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?: picasa i think
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?: for what
Last time you swam in a pool?: 2 wks ago before i got my 11
What are you wearing?: bigbigshirt with tweetybird onit
How many cars have you owned?: 0
Type of music you dislike most?: metal. and all the satanicish bands
Are you registered to vote?: nope
Do you have cable?: yep!
What kind of computer do you use?: a freaking lousy one
Ever made a prank phone call?: yep..with __
You like anyone right now?: yes and no
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: what, i cant have both? bungee. sky diving the wind hit ur face quite pain right.
Furthest place you ever traveled?: paris/london! or is us further.
What's your favorite comic strip?: foxtrot
Do u know all the words to the national anthem?: yes
Shower, morning or night?: night.
Best movie you've seen in the past month?: havent watched a movie in a loong loong time. omgosh tt sounds sad
Favorite pizza toppings?: ham and pineapple.
Chips or popcorn?: chips la. marks and spencer's handcooked ones <3

Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: whatever that is, no.
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?: beauty pageants are for beautiful pple
Orange Juice or apple?: erm. appleorangejuice.
Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?: mummy. maceroni soup, yum
favorite chocolate bar?: i like meiji strawberry choc. and i love dark choc !
Who is your longest friend and how long?: angela chan yu huang. since we were 3!
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?: homegrown means in your home or grown in singapore.i dunno where my tomatoes come from.
Have you ever won a trophy?: yeah..
Favorite arcade game?: bishbashi! ^^
Sprite or 7-UP?: sprite.

Last thing you bought at Walgreens?: whats walgreens
Ever thrown up in public?: maybe when i was young and sick
Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?: finding a true love who's a millionare? ha. true love la!
Do you believe in love at first sight?: yes and no..
SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?: spongebob i guess
Did you have long hair as a young kid?:YES. super long until she cut it like a boy in pri 2 ):
What message is on your voicemail machine?: i dunno i cant check i forgot my pw
Where would you like to go right now?: away
Whats the name of your pet?: roxie DONT LAUGH.
What kind of backpack do you have, and what's in it?: erm. the only backpack i have is the voodoodolls one and its empty. oh and my fireman deuter

yan jing ku xiao le ):

2006-12-22T17:49:00.000+08:00

my food posts are boring!
omg. i just read all of them.
im sorry la. there really isnt much to my life now besideds food.
omg tt's sad right.
was just packing my room..found a lot of old letters, old stuff.
stuff tt either made me very glad to be the me tt i am, others make me wanto go back to those..carefree genuinely happy times.
where pple arent so malicious
where friendships are simpl i frend you i dont friend you stuff.
those kind tt even if you don't friend someone can still talk wan
and the biggest enemy you make is the person who cut your quee at the 70C fmee pok stall

really..what did i do to my life! i cant even be emo now..
anw
vball chalet was the last 2 days.
mum din let me go to chuwen's hse in the end rarr
so i stayed at chalet.
was really fun! all the ps2 watching..kinda made me wanto get one for myslef. but let's see how i convince my mum to buy it for me! haha

tmr taking out stitches! my kor taking out for me! think im gonna miss stroking and feeling all 11 of them against my skin
ok tt sounds bian tai.
speaking of bian tai. the Hostel is the most bian tai thing ive watched. nauseating show with pornandgore and NO plot. mustard squirting out eye and chopping of fingers
>.< and i think benchwarmers was nice. haha at least the parts tt i was awake for (:
me and sheralyn slept from 7 am after a whole night of card playing. indian poker, pomelo [omg THE TICK!! <33 ] 99 and just about the calmest, quitest heart attack ever.. haha super fun! to about 12 pm. where i had very vivid dreams..haha proceeded to lunch at a little food hut with quite bland food and super slow lor mee. and more ps playing after! [fine okay i watched cos i totally suck at video games]
me and sheralyn found kittens! there was a black one who hijacked this other kittens mum and refused to let the real mummy cat's kitten eat food. meanshit.haha and one wk old ones which were absolutely darlings!.
i would bring them home if my dad didnt think cats are evil o.0
then it was pizza for dinner and shinjung came over and stayed over alone with a roomful of J2 BOYS. and she rocks at ps !

2006-12-22T15:56:00.000+08:00

its called merry christmas for a reason right
so im suppsoed to be happy

o k a y .

this holiday period..pretty much sums up my whole life.
few ups and a whole lot of downs
abandon
smtimes i just feel like a shithead. floating around
[tt image is actually very funny. ]
i want it all to stopppppppppppp
how did i ever allow myself to end up like this?
I dont feel so super anymore.

edited cos i sounded like an emonutcase
stupidbloggercantpasswordprotectentriesbutwhocaresrightnotlikemanypplereadthis.andifidontsayanythingithinki'lljustimplodeanddie.
i think i have an intrinsic sadness.something,thatif i manifestfullyitdeatmealive andannoythehelloutofeveryone.buti dunnohowlongicankeepupwiththispretense.ttimhappy
imcontentedttifeellovedifyouwantocallmeinsecuresensitiveorotheridioticthingsobeittt'syour
opinionimnotlookingtochangeyourmindaboutme.imnotlookingfor
pityimnotlookingforyoutosayfakesweethingstomakemehappy.
youseetheproblemwithpreconceivedopinionsis
thatyoualreadyhavebiasesandperceptionsaboutpeoplethatwillnot
beeasytshakeoffandthere'sreally,nothingicandoaboutit.
simpynotneedednotsignificant.yesiknowtheres@#.
butidowantobeinapositionwhereimatteronly
tothisoneperson,whoiguessreallydofindmeimportant.idunnohowi
livedtoenduplikethis.itsthelittlethingsthatmatter.tt
jishaochengduo.thelittleshardsofglasstt..prickyousomuchttyouwont
diefromtitbutatthesametimeitsexcruciatinglypainful.itsanever
endingviciouscycleyousee.maybeallthis
emotionaltrauma.imdisplayingthisinmyrefusalto!@#?atleasticantryontheoutside.
maybethenillbegoodenoughfor#@^#togiveadamn
iwantostopfelingpatheticstopfeelingsouseless.
justsittingaroundaitingfor___.rarr.donteventhinki
shouldbepostingthisthingup.maybei;lljustclosedowntheblogafterido.
itsnotsodifficultbutitsobviouswhennothingyoudoseemsrightandalltt.
maybeimdestinedtothis.dieinheapfulsofcookiesandfoodalone.
old,fatandshirivelled.mybeyouknowhowitsuckswhenyouhavenoonetoturn
tonoonetotellallthistoo.forfear.orwhatmaybeannoyingthemscaringthem
off.orscaredtheytheydevelopanextraniceattitudearoundyoutt'suncannily
false?arrrwhenevenurbestfriendsdontknow,orsuppossedbestfriends}donthavethetimettositandlistentobeyourfriend.whatdoyoudowhenyou
feellikethelowliestshit,andyoucantdoanythingaboutit.andyoufeel
sofreakinginaptuselessunwantedunneededandaloneandwhenyoucantjuststop
thinkingaboutthingsandcheerupijustwantofeelgoodenoughihaveanatural
cheerfuldispositioncan.justlikemyinnategreediness.butidunnowherethe
cheerfulmhappymewent.disappearedwheniwentosecschoolandivebeenlivingina
shellforalltheseyears,withmomentsohappymesproutinguphereandthere.
iknowmyselfhowmuchineedhim.asafreidn.becasueessentiallytt'swhatheis.avery
goodfriendwho'dgivemethecompanionshipthatineedandlistentome.reallywanto
listentomeandhearwhatihavetosay.nohiddenmotives,agendas.butthere'ssomnay
uglymemoriesofwhoiwasinthatrelationshipandireallydontwantogetremindedoff
allthatandrmballthethingsididntlike.aboutmyself.abouthimaboutttperiodofmylife.
ivelostmanythingsthisyear,2006.andimbeginningtofeelthatnothingigained..
willevermakeupfforttivhvlost.whenalltt'shappeneing.alltt'shappened.is
yourownfreakassfault.soi guess i only have myself to blame for it.
and its aproblem with myself.theclinicallydepressedhavefriendsandfamilyf.
ihavemymaniacalself

2006-12-17T14:12:00.000+08:00

i can feel my culinary interests venturing into the realm of japanese food

i don't care if i bore pple with my gushings .

comeon.
who can resist the delicious an pans, taiyakis, chawanmushis?

mmm

i wanto move to japan and grow fat in a little fishing village with soft hot bread to eat and fresh ssashimi and slurpish, sweet kobe beef.

tantalising.

but next week..is italian/chinese week? vote and i'll make you something (:
feel like trying my hand at dan tat.
haha

if you were interested.
my wound hurts like mad now
because my bro went to squeeze it yest to check for pus
@#^$&%*#$@&$!!

am hungry. but got a whole room to pack
and i just had lunch. haha!

and can this THING be settled soon!

2006-12-15T01:09:00.000+08:00

vball..

is a dangerous sport.

casualty list:
11 stitches
bad shoulder
busted ankle
injured wrist

and a very beatup chelsea

2006-12-13T00:41:00.000+08:00

check out my babies

all 11 of them

ugly scar right ):

2006-12-11T16:23:00.008+08:00

ive got myself a battlewound from trng!

it looks like a mini vicious shark came and took a chunk out of my leg.

now my nice shin is disfigured.

scarred.

for life.

!!

i become chou ba guai already.

hui rong le ):

11 stitches can!

ommmy i tell you it was damn pain when the doctor injected the anaesthesia into the wound there..

but the injections later were more painful than the stitching itself..
on my arm and backside.

i cannot eat soya sausce or anything dark
wait the scar come out black black even uglier

thanks shinjung, yenping and lcs for coming down to pei wo!

rarr.
now i cant train for 2-3 wks
if not the wound lie kai
sobbbb.
im gonna grow fat.
and even lousier.
basket.

how how how how how.
i dowannnn

im disfigured plus i cant train.

rarr byebye im going to a corner and cry]
):

2006-12-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

don't make me hate you

or not wanto be around you

or run away from you.

im not losing it

2006-11-29T15:23:00.000+08:00

okay i just deleted the old post
cos i find it incredibly stupid

totally not worth such a rubbish post over
i have like almost 500 recipes i think?
just kept saving and saving and saving.
think i one day cook 2 also cant finish
haha
i shall start with the desserts and pastries
choc mousse calling out to me!

marmalade pantry decided not to hire me after all.
i just knew 7bucks an hour was too good to be true
they didnt even call to tell me they din want me anymore
what manners right!

so im hoping cedele (pronounced se deh li )

been sick these few days..straight after coming back from cambodia
cambodian cold!
haha
so couldnt really train much..because my hands would turn ice cold
so bummed around, sat around. felt qt useless
im act qt glad to be home
home cooking!
my cranberries!
my chocs! someone buy my godiva?

okay im going to look for more recipes.
trying my hand at orh nee tonight
wish me luck!
but i need to buy lard first
no lard not nice.
>.<

bye!

2006-11-26T14:38:00.000+08:00

"Beng chiack beng chiack "

mus "the mop" marican

shwee the vietnamese bride

vithiya moisturiser! HOT LEGS.

eunice CHEN PI, Bridge Club! xiao yan jing!

amanda the script writer: "true love is a choice"

lamborghini amelia [HAHAHA!]

J Archana Bala : "Smack That!" , "ler Slut ler Slut"

cheryl my kitchen helper! <3 "shuai ge"

laura lim POMELO! MacDonalds, PRO photographer

" Because... i can see us holding hands ...."

along with menupause, camWORE, and many more laughable moments <33

some photos:

cambodia 06 a

2006-11-25T15:36:00.000+08:00

FAMILY PORTRAIT! [:
dont we all look alike?

2006-11-25T14:45:00.000+08:00

ah hah ! i beat cheryl to post !

haha but im really lazy now..so i'll come back later to post about cambodia with pictures
super fun, super enriching, super... wonderful

thanks you guys for all the memories
cheryl, thanks for being with me on our honeymoon

love you guys

ppppp okay! (:

2006-11-14T14:37:00.000+08:00

this, that, and just..

those things.

painful la.

it hurts.

call me psychotic but i cant help it

feel so played so stupid so..

ridiculous.

you know the times, when
you just stop to think about things

and im stuck in depressed mode.
everything is presenting themselves in the most negative light
that really is doing me in.

its hard to keep my chin up, smile and act yilin, for that matter
it just seems so justified to mope.
when everything seems to prove my hypothetical conjectures right.

oh. joy.

the one thing that still makes me happy is grocery shopping
but i cant even do that anymore.
because of mummy dearest
rarr.

and i'm stuck in a vicious cycle of self-pity
where im feeling eternally hungry and i cant stop eating
then i mope somemore
then i eat/cook more.

i need to like lock myself up and just cry everything away.

to you, my lovelies
thanks for everything,
listening to me
and just making this idiotic time pass better

and to my NEW BEAUTIFUL COOKBOOK
you. are. my. everest.

wo hui nu li

2006-11-12T14:34:00.000+08:00

i wish i could say i'm happy

but i cant.

i wish i could proudly tell you im living a fulfiling, satisfying, validating life.

but i cant.

it sucks, really
this feeling
all that's happening

to feel so small and so useless

just lil ol me
rotting away to nothingness

unsubstantiated
unimportant
unneeded

and i wish i could stop myself from feeling this way
but again. dum dum dummmm.

i cant

and i hate it tt i cant

why must i be like this?
to feel like this?
think like this?
act like this?

stupid, silly silly me.

you have yourself to blame

im done pretending im happy
don;t mind stuff
just happy to sit around
to wait around.

i need real love in my life
[and i dont mean boygirl love]

care
pple tt give a hoot

its nice you know,
simple, small things .
tt can do so much
tt make me feel better
and a little more justified to be alive.

but it's alright.

its always the loudest and happiest looking
that hurt the most.

your fault, yilin.

not even cooking helped.

misoglazedcod was very nice though

rarrr

2006-11-06T10:14:00.000+08:00

i. will. complete. I&R.

in the 2 hours tt i have to wait for hannahbanana.

going her house to stay yay
korean drama fest!

and im done with OP!!!!!!

wheeee

went pretty well! ((:

considering the fact that we only rehearsed (BARELY) as a group once this morning at 730. with us overshooting our time limit and all that.

but everything went well! talked really fast though.
i feel super shiok now. can really REALLY enjoy my hols (:

woke up at 5 this morning
to cook my lunch
im living on a 2 bucks a day budget!
really broke but believing God! (:

plus the food i make is YUMMY.
so there (:

before i go..

to xinzi!
my lovable adorable hyper cheerful hao xin group leader!
i tell you pw would really totally SUCK SHIT WITHOUT YOU.
you and your pro editing
always saving my ass
helping me
ti liang wo
when i hand in late..
and your enthusiasm, passion and optimism, just really spurred me on
ajaja hwaiting!!
really really chong mal sarang hae <33

to lincoln
oh where do i begin
you're pro too ^^
every pw meeting would be a BORE without you and your ipod super nice music to get me by
and your erm. insightful comments..that got p oh off our backs haha
hald the convos i have with you deviate from pw..but always so fulfilling? haha
you're really nice to talk to..
plus you make YUMMY food.
don't forget you're supposed to cook for our postPW party
and my bday/wedding!
^^!

ash!
you're so cute!
and so on task..
always xinzi allocate stuff.you'd be the first to do and send us all
our efficient cutie pie <33
really really glad to have you in my pw group..
thanks for all your hard work. poochclick.dalton. loar.
it was hard on you!
love! <3

ps. i love our q&A page

and lastly...siok!
haha my time keeper for op.
thanks for keeping me within 5 min!

2006-11-05T00:11:00.000+08:00

nah

dinner at lincoln's

thanks for the delicious food! (:

2006-11-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

hello!

i just spent my day

reading recipes..
cooking dinner

((:

i really really LIVE for food
thank God He created us to be able to EAT!

i put on 1 kg after dinner at lincoln's!
haha he roasted an entire chicken
just for us.. awww
took a pic of the spread.but i lazy to transfer..
and now need to type out script to send my dear xinzi ah

pw meeting..was quite nice. haha talked about random things [:
life..

friends..

food..

stuff tt happened this year..

im misunderstood! honest!

and i ogled at jamieoliver cookbooks on his com too

today went swimming ..yay after so long!
went without my sister
so not so motivated today
[though the skinny kid tt swam super fast made me kick harder...

but to no avail haha. ]

swam 25 laps. not bad for me la.
considering like half a year ago, i was all panting and short of breath after..1 lap?!

okay
liverpool is playing now
1-0 alr! yay

2006-10-30T00:09:00.000+08:00

haha you just KNOW im gonna update about food right

dinner at valentino's was SUPERB! y u m m y.

really really damn inspiring
i wanto be able to cook food liddat too )): ........

les cordon bleu here i come man!

nvm i will start practising everyday from tmr onwards!
finished dinner at around 7 plus..stills uper full now

antipasto = appetiser!
this freaking good cheese and ham thing.
brilliant tossed salad with olives! capsicun! tomatoes!

pizza bread! shiok with soup [see below]
green thing by the side = olive oil with dunno what dip. super nice

fish and seafood soup.
tomato based.
yum.
need i say more?

on to the main course....
being a well-balanced, all-rounded family..
we had:

meat (left) : baby lamb leg. mmmm.
fish: salmon [ooohlala]

and of course pasta!
squid ink linguine (right) + duck fettucini

and to top everything off, a damn good cake!
meringue with icecream bits..

there was the pastry branch of the restaurant next door.
and i just really really just wanted to work there

boss will go bankrupt though. haha with me stealing all the food

and baking for myself to eat

everyone has a weekness. mine's cakes cookies tarts pies.....!

haha

but but . only the pro-ly made

[my own included!]

this restaurant's really really good. the owner and waiters and everything all so friendly. sit next to you and recommend dishes.

so cute [:

fat italian chef <3

the food at my wedding would be done by them la. so i need a damn damn flattering wedding dress so i can eat all i want and don't look like im going to burst!

i finally got to wear tt top! i love it i love it i love it.

how about tt for a room colour?

ok time to sleep or maybe do tt pilates thing.

haha ciaociao

love!

2006-10-29T14:14:00.000+08:00

~~can someone please teach me how to put up archives?~~
i found out how! nahaha

been bumming around at home trying to deplete the endless food supply in my house..

obviously i have not succeeded, hahah
watched plenty of cooking shows. jamie oliver! <33

i just really really like cooking nowadays haha.
the food's.... not that bad la.
at least i havent burnt the kitchen down or something. ^^

just came back from church.. feel a bit bad cos in the morning really was distracted by so many things..
when the time was supposed to be for God and Him only )):

came home..failed horribly to try and mug for chem spa..ended up watching tv again

going for a super nice italian dinner tonight..mummy's bday dinner..halloween's fully booked
so we're having it early
i really should rest my stomach for the feast tonight..but lunch and tea beckons!

waiting for my sis to come home with the photo paper and ink for the printer so we can continue our little scrapbook for mum and papa

once again, just a reminder

i am selling cookies tiramisu and cheesecake for anyone's who's interested!
will have order sheets up soon <3
[they're really NOT BAD la. ]
order!
and no diet should include phasing out cookies and cakes and pastries.
YILIN"S RULES!

i wanted to go swimming yesterday but but but %^&*(&^%#.
so next week maybe.

haha i only have the courage to walk out of the changing room in my swimsuit with my sister who will point at my flABs and poke my cellulite.
and then lap me a million times haha
but i still like going swimming with her when she's being my sister and my friend

okay i shall get back to spa..
dont't leave me to rot during the holidays okay
must call me out!!!!!! tt means YOU reshtarachuseyocherynannglorshweemeliacherylmabekahlengwanlinvonchristinehannah
and anyone else who wants yilin company!

haha you want me i'd want you.
okay tt sounds wrong o.0

ciaociao! love!

im nt obsessd!

2006-10-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

hello pple
haha guess what

yes! clever! i baked again
for ms chuah since she's not gonna be teaching us next year..]:
and everyone else cos its last day of school [:
you think i still can bug her nxt year? haha
i feel...

sad.

it'd be different
i should have done more?

anyway anyway!
i'm baking cookies to sell!
yes. really affordable. for super good (haha i thickskin) cookies. with super generous dollops of choc and ingredients <33

email me for more details
yilinn@gmail.com

i think i lost ----s!
so sad. ]:
i think tt's really very very impt
belly still so --
basket .

2006-10-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

yesterday's was papa bday!
we went to our beloved restaurant WahLok at carlton hotel [the food there's really really really good.]

we bought him a nice wallet. my bro him got 2 ties for 20 bucks [my bro, the ever thrifty one]

mummy and papa! my mum looks like mrs helen tan hor.

unni! see see see my suspenders! nahaha i love them <33 style="CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2297/3482/320/SSM11239.jpg" border="0">
with my wei lai da sao!

so it's gonna be a
looong entry ahead (: got lots to say. picture-book style haha (:

Took me a gazillion years to get all the pics up. stupid picasa only upload 4 at a time. growl
and my lousy com crashed the first time I tried la. Rubbish >.<

ate damn a lot last night..went home tummies full and hot and shiok <33 href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2297/3482/1600/SSM11262.jpg">
pig stomach from the the pig stomach soup. super nice

this winter melon egg white thing.. YUMMY.

this. beef thing

melts.
in.
your.
mouth.

super super scrumptious. dish of the night!

veggie with tofu

fish head! i love fish cheeks

my fav chinese bun! shou tao. so pretty somemore

fruits to top everything off! damn sweet mango [:

what lies within....

;
;
;
;
;
;

bo lo bao!
another shiok pau. ^^

the eating does not stop there!

back home...
dum dum dummmm

papa with his haagen daaz ice cream cake

okay today!
woke up with a bad throat and a bad bad baddd dream
but the bo lo bao breakfast made it all better

tried studying for SATS.
but ended up :

1. watching AFC -- Asian Food Channel with my sis and bro.
i'm SO gonna subscribe to that channel. more jamie oliver!
and hello. asian FOOD channel. it was made for me.

2. observing my roxy! [YOU. stop laughing at her name]

look at
her big backside <3 href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger/2297/3482/1600/SSM11299.jpg">

my pride and joy in the oven

4. looking around my house for food
let me show you EVERYTHING EDIBLE [delicious too [: ] in my house.

my bro's gf bought this back for us. super super nice. dark choc with praline center
YUMM
onlyleft one or two because...

aiya choc is good for your heart la.

no more eggs cos i've fried them all. raisings half-eaten kinderbueno and tt last praline choc

can you see ALL THE ICECREAM. haagen daaz. mochi. tupperware contains ICECREAM CAKE macadamia my fav somemore.
sobb

my fridge!
fruits on the left. nurts and chi herbs on the right

nuts, biscuits, cereals
yummy

innocent looking cupboard on the outside..
food store ont he inside!
more nuts pringles. cranberries. raisins biscuits. french biscuits
yummy

my nice patio..looking all clean and nice
then hey! look to your right.
more food!

sweets hiding by the phone

hahah so that was just half of the kitchen and like a bit of the first flooor.
there's definitely more lurking around waiting for me to eat

okay more another time!
damn sleepy alr

2006-10-23T02:41:00.000+08:00

3. able to cook yummm

God, help me!
i'm damn sleepy but bio is not done. there's 3 more organisms left.
should i just heck?
yes i should
my tired body is crying out for sleep

went cycling with cx just now..
felt veryvery nice.
though the haze and all tt was notsogood
i had a great time! until butt pain.
cycled the whole of ecp

had a really nice talk
felt like myself and all happy and at ease
it was just just very very relaxing.
haha
once a month yes?

was my cousin's 21st bday today..
ate quite yummy food
watched all my beloved aunties play gin rummy
haha it'd be my turn in like 40 years! haha

acquisitions of the week!
3 pairs of shoes :

shopping spree at pedder red. one for me and che 2 for dear mummy

1 gucci
1 kenneth cole

1 boots

1 LV bag
1 gucci bag

1 brown dress

hahahah! totally koped my other cousin's old stuff. she bought them in like the 80's or early 90's.
but all classic. now still can use still can carry
free one take la!
haha damn shiok (:

today's my appa's bday
seng il chu ka!

2006-10-20T00:42:00.000+08:00

2. able to carry a shaven head well

look at me, im blogging everyday!
shows you how terribly bored i am at home
there's nothing to do!
singapore is b o r i n g . rarr.

school has been a drab too. blah blah and more blah.
noone turns up!

today me and von were supposed to go starbucks to study
on 13 we decided it was too late. and i went home and took a 2 hour nap.
super shiok. havent napped in damn long

watched the prestige today!
nicenice! very..psychotic? very..aiya makes you think la.
i like christian bale (:
rubber ball rubber ball!

i'm think im losing my brother! ):
say no more than10 sentences to him per week.
and the fact tt he's working like 12 hours a day doesnt help
and 3/4 the time left he's with his girlfriend
ohwell

okay before i go to sleep and allow my liver to detox all the rubbish in my body
i shall leave you with a yilin fact of the day!

1. i'm terribly afraid of ghost stories/movies

[i promise they'd get juicier! (: ]

ciaociao love!
might just pon h3 chem tmr to go for a swim if the BLOODY HAZE isnt too bad.

2006-10-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

1. must be able to carry me . as in xin niang bao

i have been trying to burp non-stop for the entire day
i swear there are fishes and worms in my tummy.
making a fool out of me
totally felt like crap
and my stupid gp and econs grades didnt help ):

and just looking at the haze gave me a headache

rarrr

butbut but
today was ironically quite super!

my cousins went to get a puppy and i went with them to this mini snauzher [sorry i forgot my breed spellings] breeder place
and there was this darling girl that was absolutely gorgeous
my cousins brought home her bro,
called uno
and he's adorable like nothing too.
look!:

my goodness. i just love holding puppies..
they look at you.then domp, plonk their head on your chest. and fall asleep
no mu kyo!

(: if can have things my way i'll have LOADS of puppies.
but of course plus my roxy [dont you dare laugh at her name!]

who's cuter?

2006-10-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

i feel like puking.

thought the regurgitation during bio lecture was the end of it

but nooo.

felt worse after my umma came to fetch me from school..
must be the teh. or pandan cake. or some rubbish that i ate

garrr

so im not going to school tmr..to collect my beloved gp and econs. haha which would totally worsen my results ):

felt like kicking myself in the head.
just another eg of how the harder i try the less likely iget it.
this year's been full of this kinda disappointing crap.
ohwell that's life for you

but i'm really really very thankful for everything alr
all glory to the Lord! (:

i wanted to do the thing i saw on lincoln's blog. but i'm too..uncomfortable now.
we can have a 'let's get to know yilin' superficial blog entry another time

see you people
goodluck!

2006-10-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

oh....
mild norovirus goaway.
dunno if its the haze or what also. i just felt damn bad today. head throbbing. swollen lymphnodes. sore throat . queesy bloated stomach.
garrr. totally ruined my sunday eating plans

aigooo. and results of the big Ps are out tmr ):
quite nervewrecking i think i can't sleep tonight.
so i shall amuse myself with videos from youtube!
my sis was showing me all the dance vids.
so you think you can dance finals and overdrive stuff. [she refused to bring me! ):]
man. why can't i dance la.
and she totally disproved my theory that fat pple can't dance
by showing me this pro..not so skinny lady
but man she's damn good!
so maybe there's hope for me?
hahaha. maybe i can create some trademark shiokalicious dugong dance?
any takers?
think pple'll probably pay me to take it down youtube or smth.wasting space haha

watched thankyouforsmoking with my sister just now..dragged me up from my nap
think im more suited to watch mindless chick flicks like john tucker must die
shows that would make me squeal in delight at pecs or smth
hahah
and no i don't really squeal la.

been feeling kinda empty lately.
[not in the food sense, of course]
just..the whole hooha about what im going to do with my life and all that
but whattodo. take one step at a time.
and i know God has everything all nicely planned out for me (:

okay ciaociao. i wanto watch more videos.

it's called a breakup cos it's broken

i wish i don't have to do this.but its so easy..so easy to slip to somewhere i dowan to be
someone i dowan to become again if i dont
the cruel part isnt this. its that i went into it just..not knowing where it was going..
mi ahn nae

2006-10-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

you know i think im blogging for noone to read. haha so i'm talking to myself! haha
better also. less pple to think im..brainless.

anw..my new room is moulin rougue themed! woohoo. <33 i absolutely love the wallpaper
will post up the pic once the interior designer is done with it (:

i cant wait to move.. but im dreading the day i have to leave this house

home for 17 years.
moving from having 8 buses to 1 miserable 32. that comes once in 30 min. and only goes to parkway ); ohwell. pros and cons. looks like i have to fix up my rusty bike

liverpool game just ended. and it sucked shit. dunno what's up their boxers la.
playing like crap ):
poor gerrard cant seem to score!

i baked cookies again! hurrah. (:
yummy with kinderbueno and white choc.
MY secret recipe. haha aga aga add flour add sugar add butter one.

my sister's dance friends came over today.
made a lottt of noise while i struggled with sat diagnostic test..

haha really DONT think i can finish studying.
and i'll probably like get damn low.
ohwell.
mayeb i should just heck
and don't go us to study haha

im in desperate need to go shoppinggggg
but i only seem to be able to shop with my sis (for opinion) and my mum ( for $$$)
haha..
i really want suspenders!
okay i shall go check out catering for party at my house
byebye

2006-10-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

i feel so disorganised i decided i shall make random lists (:

things to do:
1. learn a foreign language
2. design my room! ooh need $$$
3. go back to piano (!!!)
4. not eat something for more than 2 hours.
fine. 1 hour. ((:
5. bake more cookies
6. get a full body massage
7. go for a spa
8. get a facial
9. go iceskating
10. go cableskiiing
11. i desperately need a swim!
12. pig out islandwide
13. bowling/pool?
14. movie marathon sleepover!
15. bake a full cake + cook a full meal!
16. say goodbye to my darling house
17. oh ya. study for sats when all these are done, haha

my fav :
1. samsoon ah!
2. goong [yeh..mahmahnim]
3. e mo zai shen bian!
4. grey's anatomy alex!

food:
gohlohyok. nuts strawberries. strawberry icecream mintchoc dark choc all kinds of choc in small doses ^^
don't really like choc cake and choc icecream though
papadum (is that how you spell it?)
i like brown rice, asparagus. brocolli. mushroom! haha i suddenly love them.
i shall work towards papayas. papaya milk christine!
cold, hard grapes
cranberries! thanksthanks cheryl <33
chicken. i love chicken
i like salmon
i like pistachios walnuts cashews almonds

okay wait. if i go on about food. you know there' be no end. nahahah tt's yilin for you. so i shall stop here. to stop feelign hungry myself !

i like pple touching my hair = cutting and washing hair
i dont dont dont like hot water on my face . i dont like water on my face fullstop
i like rubbish love stories, they're just..my way of escaping..into a reel fictitious perfect world..just allows me to still have faith in love ya?

i like..the xiao zhu thingie..the piglet they sell during midautumn fest
i like the skin of pau.. more than the filling
i love shou tao, you know the pink backside looking pau?)
i love..kong ba bao
i like the little bun biscuit//or honeybuns as tara calls it

i love fish! all kinds.

oh shit. im back to talking about food.

okayokay i shall make a shopping list then
1. suspenders
2. furniture for my room!
3. the muji zha bo (woman) bike..so nice la
4. u zap. haha come on la. i seriously need help !

so happy so happy
tmr going to bugis with the girls! boshipda! school on mon and tue had been crap and totally..unfun.
we need pe! haha
morning date with priya and the balls first.
trng today was..not so good. quite lousy. not tt i was any good in the first place..but lousier than usual );

okay i shall go and sleep alr

ahh. vball trngs nvr felt so.. nice.
priya you know what i mean (:
night night dugonglings

2006-10-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness
i'm FINALLY done!
with goong

totally put off my studying for SATs.
oh well.i already foresee bad grades haha. i only have what, 20 days? left to study.

gulp.

the show's damn nice!
haha although the crown prince is no major hottie.
i'm a just sucker for lovey dovey shit like this
where they actually end up tgt, and not die of nose cancer or something

boy meets girl, girl likes boy, boy is mean to girl, boy realises what an ass he was. boy gets jealous when other boy likes girl. boy actually likes girl, but acts like he doesnt. boy is mean to girl but is secretly dying on the inside. boy is a bad boy. boy is dominating, in a good way. dominatrix spinning arounds
then finally boy ends up with girl <333
happily ever after!

i know i probably sound like a shallow, little teenage twert now..but hello these are ridiculously wonderful things that never happen in real life, so let me indulge in these fantasy worlds ya? <33

singapore royal family anyone?
ha ha ha.

anw.
i only slept 2 hours these 2 days
stayed up with my sister the entire night watching
constantly smacking and poking each other to stay awake
i managed 22 episodes from 1.30 pm yest to 7 am this morning.
haha trusty laptop came in handy (;
and in total..34 episodes in 2 days! woohoo

totally DIDNT have to go school today
didnt even present for PW. ):
ponned chem lecture (hello it was reflect and review or smth like that)

and went home to continue my marathon swooning!

that's 34 episodes in 2 days.
i need sleep
haha goodnight everyone
maybe i can be a princess in my dream

2006-10-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

you don't miss your water till the well runs dry

oh well.
sometimes
only when you've lost something
then you realise..

how precious it was
how wonderful it was
how lovely it was

makes you wanto kick yourself in the head.
like how could you be so stupid
so caught up with everything
without stopping to think
about what you want
and how its actually right there.
everything

i dunno if i'm feeling this way
because i was really stupid
or im just being jealous or neurotic or psychotic
poo ):

anw
on a happier note
i baked cookies! with my cheche
woot.
tanwanlin i can bake okay.

yesterday wento hc's maf
just to see see
my kahleng sang!
omgoodness you have no idea how proud me and wanlin were
haha to see such an..enthu kahleng
our baby <33>

school starts tmr
fun fun and more fun!
besides stinking pw

okay my grey's anatomy dl finish alr
alex here i come! <33>

cookies tmr!
love!

2006-10-05T01:41:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness.
it's been A WHILE since i've been here ):

look what the awful Ps did to me.

hopefully my results won't be screwed up.. think i worked..pretty hard la.

had about..
1567839487978567834657896 trips to my kitchen
either to grab food or
to cook when there's nothing to eat

9 trips to cold storage/ntuc to buy ham/strawberries/cereal and to satisfy any other cravings i had

a million trips to starbucks.
surving on one miserable iced latte for 10 hours at one go

with vonvon my study buddy! until we butt pain :I

20 times, amused by the V/T/NY/SA/N J pple at starbucks too

1 mooncake celebration there

and about 7 cans of Shark, red bull or idragon

that had NO effect whatsoever

20 smses to ms chuah. to ask what allocative efficiency meant. haha [thanks ms chuah for EVERYTHING]

anyhoo. THAT obstacle is over! just about 2 more common tests, 1 prelims and the big As next year left. oh and SATs

had a wonderful time these few days. enjoying every minute of freedom we have..

today went to ecp! with glor ca shwee cheryl yiming kahwei shouyee narpal adnaan clift ohmygoodness. chao fun (: bladedcycled with everyone..
pics with ca...our resident dajie!

had a shiok dinner..
had my first stingray
and more fish!
super nice (:

shwee came today! ooh uber fun.
with blades on my feet and wind in my air.
plus me and christine's (desperate) attempts to be as fast as others on our bike..
haha bellowing boyband and chi sappy songs..
ahh this is what life shoudl be about man..
this is what's really important in life

friends

yesterday i went out with my darling kahleng.
they're the group of friends..that will NEVER go away.
mabekahlengwanlin. sarang hae!

monday. ooh my goodness. we all were damn high after the paper..
but the excitement for me..didnt really sink in that quickly
becasue on thurs i alr was damn happy and celebrating with yes, more food alr

haha so we had a nice lunch at..food junction (fyi: yong tau foo is banned till school restarts) and we went shopping!
didnt uy anything except my sexy kryptonite earring
(or at least i like to think they're kryptonite. humour me won't you? (:)going back to get the green one..so i can make superman go weak in his knees. yumm
haha

went off to cut my hair.
ended up..very cleopatra like
dunno if that's a good or bad thing.
but its cut alr
cant do anything about it.

maybe except moan

so went off to town to meet von,mish.christine,chuseyoyo and reshie (:

for a delicious fish & co dinner! duno why i craving fish like mad these few days..

camwhored along orchard road

i love this pic:

and this!
oohh mango baby

quote of mon night;

us: Where yall going for dinner?
sheralyn: secret.
von: ohh secret recipe ah.

-.-

ching ah! jiayou!

ohoh. before i forget
and this dress if freaking delicious
i love BIG BOWS.

just finished prettypersuasion with my sis.
another PSYCHOTIC movie.
think i'll just stick to my PGs and NC-16s

night night.
stupid pw talk tmr

2006-09-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

i have a thing for

bald,

tall

hot

Men.

eric <33

concert was a blast. totally worth rotting with ahjummas for 7 hrs?
sarang hae ^^

disappointment ; rejection ; failure
all too familiar :(
sucks la. i can't seem to get anything i try for

2006-09-05T11:13:00.000+08:00

life is

painfully...

short.

almost ridiculously abrupt.

you never know when He'll take you

so let's make the most of our puny lives

rip
steve irwin
hero to many

2006-09-04T02:12:00.000+08:00

missed me?

fine i missed you

i missed my blog <33

my stupid computer so cocked up that it was difficult for me to drag my super ass to blog about my super days haha

okay anw recap:

mon: he jun xiang! but i'm not going to say anymore don't ask me to tell you. my stupid camera was so lousy so no nice pics. and im still bu shuang about that :I
tue..bummed around in school..had a really emotionally warped night on wed.. felt so ..inapt suddenly.
but got over all that today.. power of God <33 face="trebuchet ms">
thurs..went out with mabeline kahleng wanlin. nj, vj rj and hc.. my best friends from primary school. i just love it when we still are exactly the same when we're together. except councillor kahleng cant stop yaking and talking now.. haha..pics soon (:

pigged out at crystal jade for dinner. super yum! charsiew +sweet and sour fish + tougua

fri:..studied at starbucks with von von and reshiee. i sat there for 8 hours. butt painnnn la >.<>

today..went church..really good! haha i'm benefitting damn a lot from this marriage series thing. rediscovery of myself. change before i kill my husband. haha

went to beng hiang for dinner

saw the triplets!

one of them is my korkor's friend somemore.

somemore they all scholarship

brains and brawn <33

so went for dinner there cos my ah gu stuck lottery. treated us all to kong ba bao, hei zou and other fatterning whatnot.

YUMMY

fulfilling day today!

almsot baked today also. but my dad bought bo lo bao home..<33

i swear i'll never go hungry in this home (:

okay that was my week!

how was yours? (:

of course not forgetting my daily dose of kimsamsoon <33>

i miss shwee ca glor melia tara already ):
study date soon aye? ISLAND CREAMERY i say (:

ciao ciao, Love!

2006-08-26T14:07:00.000+08:00

inspiration of the YEAR.

this is kimsamsoon

wahlau come on yilin you can do it

hello

2006-08-26T13:26:00.000+08:00

i love my laura lim!
i really miss you :)
tell laura i love her

405 gathering soon aye? after the horrible promos!

i really really feel so blessed to have my family
it's sad that i've only started to really appreciate them this year

i must really thank God for everything that has happened this year
the good. and
the bad :

everything happens for a reason. i really believe in that
shit happens
and you deal with that shit
you grow fat
you are fat
and you embrace that
(while secretly tring to diet and ~~exercise~~ complain)
sorry i couldnt resist sneaking a snipe at myself haha

anyways. i think all that has happened this year. has really made me

more mature?
i dunno. i may act that same. laugh the same
be the same coh loh bu gu xing xiang person that i am
but i think ive become stronger.

through realising i cannot rely on myself for certain things.
that i really needed someone greater than this world to count on
to carry my through

made me open my eyes and truly appreciate family.
my kor kor, ever so self sacrificing
my sister. zhe me teng wo
my mummy so funny and so loving
and my papa. just love us so much he really goes all out to give us the best

yes my mum looks a bit like laukokkok. my mum prettier okay!

my kor kor so handsome :) lau ah pek.
see his nose!! gahh i love his nose.

when we were little. me my cous my sis my bro

kor kor so cute
im the one with the o.o face
my beautiful mummy

che's bday..she's wearing my gorgeous prom dress!

doctor tan!!!!

my silly siblings. hah we have the same goofy genes?

ahching ah joyce and my gazillion amount of cousins :)

6

2006-08-22T22:05:00.000+08:00

LESSON OF THE DAY / WEEK / MONTH / YEAR

know your 3-D shapes well
a cube has _ sides? SIX.

oh well. that was bio spa yesterday all over and done with
brilliant me

let's talk about..
love

what do we know about love?
mere 17 year olds, stepping into relationships and all .

what do we really hope to get out of it?

taking aside that 3 % of you who feel you can marry whoever you want to marry

relationships now, are they more of a companionship?

source of intimacy?

or just someone to call your own?

yet practical theories aside, we can't help but fall into this tangly gooey yet wonderful mess of love

it's always so easy to say
concentrate on your studies blah
now isn't the right time

but hello we're at the age of raging hormones!

which could confuse us about love

is it worth it? to give so much into a relationship you know may not last?

or step into a relationship where it is so..
unbalanced
unstable

just so unfair to either party?

but you're still willing to give it a shot and hope it lasts?

i don't know if my heart can take this emotional rollercoaster

i don't want to put anyone through this as well

gahhhh
okay nvm
i meant this entry to be all philosophical and all.
but i've lost my train of thought.

anyhoo.

i'm off to watch my korean counterpart

kimsamsoon!

ciaociao

ca ke

2006-08-20T22:24:00.000+08:00

hello hello!
just now i typed out a damn long entry about my brother
and how he's been super in my life
and how happy i am to have a da ge ge
becaue of the nice talk we had
but

my stupid computer hung on me
)):

anyway! on a happier note

my hair is oily my face is oily my hands are oily!

but
my cheesecake's baking in the oven ! (((:

at the expense of bio spa mugging

really really tempted to be sick tmr

havent even looked at my bio notes

plus i wanto watch ballack and sheva later

i had like a super big craving for cheesecake yesterday

searched online for recipes
and decided that i'd do one from scratch

from MY head!

no recipe okay

so if i doesnt taste that good. whatever

YOU try baking a cake

haha yep yep

im trying my own version of jelly hearts

agar agar and all (:

i'll bring tmr and let all my pretties try (:

tata!

2006-08-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

hohum

pw just robbed me of my entire saturday

plus liverpool ~~lost~~ fine. drew with stupid sheffield united

plus i totally pigged out today at home

today is not a good day at all ):

it wasn't a good week.
because

my 8 remaining jelly hearts melted on me! chikalabong $%^&*(!
should have listened to ruth

but they were yummy, while they lasted.

i shall make them tomorrow! haha. waste even more time

anyway.
i think many people have a misconception about me

i say, don't confuse my cheerfulness for madness

i am perfectly capable of having intelligent conversations with you

just that rubbish ones are more fun

so try me one day! haha

just read ca's blog,
she always has so much thought provoking stuff

got me thinking about my own parents and everyth.

i'm so different from her

i really admire her strength and independence

stuff i probably can't find in me

so i think if you throw me in a pool i'll just sink .
(hello - not because of the weight)

or desperately do dugong body waves and still sink.

because ive grown so dependent on the people around me
my family, my friends, even _ _ _ _t_ _

that i think i can't even manage half a DIY day.

which is very worrying .

the person I've become, the person that i am, is someone i don't really like

i'm not proud of many things i've done before,

lying pretending acting .
just a little too much to become someone others wanted me to become

when i describe myself, would i have anything more to say besides energetic, cheerful, loud?

what makes me unique? special? what am i good for?

this lack of individuality, lack of a niche, lack of direction is really depressing .

oh poo.

2006-08-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

presenting ....

the retards!

hahaha. they have all joined my uglyfaceclub! true converts. muahahaha
we can terrorise the world with our..less than pretty faces!
haha world domination here we come!

so i'm SUPPOSED to be studying economics, but i got sick of oligopolies, their ability to estract supernomal profits and all that jazz.

plus it didn't help that all the examples i tried to come up with involved

surprise, surprise

food

thus went to look at the products of camwhoring

stumbled upon this hidden stash of..gasp! more ugly photos! haha featuring debo's little brother glen (he's one of 6) in the middle. so cute right! (:

so anywayy.
go and listen to kiss the rain! haha ca's introduction. NICE.

okay my hot little date with johnny boy awaits

tata darlings!

epitome of everything i've every looked for

2006-08-14T00:49:00.000+08:00

L I V E R P O O L
WON!!

wheeeeee !

fine. community shield only.
but still..it totally made my day :)
got to see my beloved gerrard stretch those sexy legs. plus my new hot young thing ---

gonzalez! that spicy, exotic thing from chile (no pun intended)

now, if you think this is why i watch soccer..you're probably..

right!

haha. but i understand the game okay! you can test me :)

i almost went mad yesterday doing 10 weeks of The Right Word. suddenly felt really empowered after i was done.

so if you put me under duress to do something...
i might get pugnacious and start a skirmish/fray with you where i shall proceed to shower you with the most caustic and acrimonious sentences my puny brain can think of.
that was 5 of the 5 x 4 x 10 new words i learnt.
and if i used them wrongly. .whatever! at least i tried to use them haha :)

okay pics from deb's sleepovers are up
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2103231266
check them out! :)

stupid tokyo drift theme song stuck in my head. stupid shwee la!
haha we all need to learn tara's dance moves aye? :)

nightnight girliepants.

last kiss goodbye? :

2006-08-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

i have to show off this darling

her name is tricia and she's my adorable niece ! mimi jiejie's baby girl
it was babies overload on sunday night + many more to come :)
it was ahgirl jiejie's (she's just about the most gorgeous person to come from my family) homecoming dinner..she went to texas right after she got married.. shiokalicious food :)) always nice to see family :)

my papa and trixie!
mama and trixie!
me and claudia, the xiao da ren!

here are the rest of the pics!
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2103231063
ciaociao! im off to night blading!

2006-08-09T21:42:00.000+08:00

happy national day ppl!
had stayover at deb's on monday!! to celebrate resh's bday two months late :)
we ate damn a lot again! nana and deb's other chinese maid just kept cooking and cooking for us. ate the shiok sausage and fish! but there were so little juicy plump sausages :((

here are some pics first..i don't know why my stupid com cannot put more pictures up

girltalked the whole night. who's pretty and all that blahblah. haha i swear we can never get sick of talking about that
spent the night with gloria attached to me! haha i was her human bolster for the night! i felt really...
loved. haha
squeeze 6 girls in a room and you get oxygen deprivation haha..so i was very high in school
we went to school for 3 hours of national day celebrations..camwhored as usual..:) totally love my papa for buying that new cam man. although it only has zoom, timer, flash and no flash and video recording. quite suck. hahaha

xinzi! her streetdance was good! i resolve..to learn how to do a proper body wave..by end of this year! shwee learn with me ya? hahaha i believe we can do it!
or i can just do my dugong wave on the floor. :)))

played charades with chuseyo they all..mus is damn funny! can't believe i missed your pole dance for along came poley :))

then at night me christine and vonvon went out for movie and to watch fireworks
we watched click! ended up with tears streaming down our faces at a supposed slapstick comedy. haha
"family...first.."
took a bit of pics. we were quite high took pics on some unknown person's motorbike. haha
fireworks didn't go off at 11.59 as expected :(
so we sat at some ulu table playing i never (yes with 3 pple) and truth and truth. we didn't manage to have any dares haha
then there was this guy running at like 12 am? madness. but thought he looked quite hot. angmohish. tall. dark( cos of the lack of light). :))

yep that was it..doens't sound much, but it was reallyreallyreally nice talking to them, without a care for the impending promos....(cue dramatic music! )

remember circle of trust okay? :)

today i stayed home and pigged out on marks and spencers, mentos sweets, horlicks sweets, beehoon, and other whatnot. tell me how to lose weight! >.<

think im just meant to be superdugong! and kimsamsoon!

shop

2006-08-06T00:05:00.000+08:00

I am going to do something I shouldn't do

show off these!

the blue, gold stripes and choc tops are my favs! really nice:) the gold shoes are super pretty too! they (and the knee-length pants) were from zara's kids section
tara i can fit okay! and no it was not once broken, considered sold. haha :)

so i went out with my mum and sis today to town..Armed with vouchers and ready to fight our way through the Saturday crowd. haha, man zai er gui! :)
totally worth sacrificing what, 10 hours of homework and studying time

really glad i went out with them
see that life is so much more than this

you know, it's funny how we always end up in rubbish situations
be it willingly or uncontrollably
situations that only hurt us and convolute our lives even further
and just eat you alive

like the one I'm in now
let's hope I get out if soon

and my darlings get out of theirs too.

just put a closure to all that is uncertain
leave nothing..ambiguous. hanging

and then we can all be heng bok! (xing fu) :)

good night my pretties

f o p

2006-08-05T00:29:00.000+08:00

fop was great! really enjoyed myself though iw as like damn dead towards the end of it. . CCC worship! :) plus my mummy's favourite don moen.
it was suppsoed to end on on a high note. not like this.
my dad found out i went. and gave me a huugee lecture on like religion. and how he hopes my religion would not be different from his. and how i would make a decision that would make him happy, sacrifice personal things that you want to not cause your parents (dad) anger..
so as not to disrupt the family where the family is like a small boat. if one wants to swim, the other wants to row. it'd get nowhere and cost much confusion internal strife and other whatnot.
my dad has held these beliefs since he was like 20, and it's going to be so difficult to wear them down. but nothing is impossible with Christ!
:( am reallyreally sad now. please pray for me that my dad would be open and let me seek God. and like help me and my mummy stay strong during this period or time
as for now..i really don't know what to do
do i stand up now and fight and say im going to be a Christian no matter what, or lay low in fear of my dad throwing a book at me or something.
my dad..hai. he really takes filial piety to a whole new level..
i guess i kinda have myself to blame, but i saw this coming. sooner or later my dad would just find out.
i just don't want my dad to get angry wwith my mum and take it out on her.
:( am sad and worried and scared about what's to come. but my Lord will carry me through. i believe he'll deliver me out of this persecution.
i'm so tired of sliding back in and out. i need to stay as committed and convicted as i can.
jiayou!

10

2006-08-03T22:57:00.000+08:00

okay i shall do more aboutme stuff to take my mind off those rubbish thoughts

i like
haagen daz strawberry, greentea, mac nut. okay fine i like a lot of flavours. icecream
gohlouyok! anyth lemonny. sour sweet
i love sweets. gummy jjang sho yo!
horlicks. i like dogs a lott.i adore my roxy [yah i know its a dumb name]
i cry when im angry
i love the combination of green and gold. [tasteful gold only, please]
i can do a killer filipino accent
im very fickle.
i can get obsessive about stuff very easily
haha . i cant sing + dance [but there's always no harm trying! haha]
when i eat pau i dont really eat the filling. i love the pau skin!
i like sweet bready things! i love cream puffs
i like old songs..boyband songs. loveydovey sappy stupid lyrics songs.

heart itchy.

2006-08-03T20:42:00.000+08:00

i hate feeling this way.
knowing that there's no hope whatsoever. with everything just blatantly telling you to stop having these thoughts/emotions and feelings.
when you know you shouldn't. when you know it's not meant to be. when you know something can never happen because it just is so ridiculous and far-fetched and impossible.
but it just remains etched in your head.
taunting you. mocking you.
hving to live with the torture of it. reminding you that it can never be.
that you can't do anything about it. that you can only watch from the sidelines

ee not nice. :(

i really hate feeling this way

kick ass

2006-08-02T23:15:00.000+08:00

hello hello!

slacked away during bio +pw plus took loads of pics again !
reflection on tara's gorgeous ipod
shouyee so showy

and we all know that kw loves yiming our ah ma and gloria sleeping

shwee shnua shnuppy ! :)
tara trying to achieve the act-cute pouty big eyed look
c a !
minahahbucheena?

today we had our first kickboxing lesson for pe electives!
oh my goodness i tell you it was damn fun!
plus we had this enthu old metro/gay instructor with his beaaautiful stretches. haha basically me,melia,shwee,ca,tara,gloria,siok,justina,joanna and emily + jinhanandrewashvinjuinxian from our class went for kickboxing. and it was mad fun! its the kind of thing tt you've got to be enthu and on for it to be fun la. i tell you all of us are gonna lose weight after these 4 lessons. ahha super tiring! totally drenched after tt.haha but felt so..exercised.
hit tt molestor. punch the nose! punch the chin! but i dont like his techno it'smylife music! play sexy back !! :)

dentistry talk was...useless. ahh. like now don't really wanto try for tt too.

think i should go into the food industry. since my life practically revolves around food. (eating it tt is) but still. like research into the newest, nicest gummy sweet ever! ahahahaha.

trng was damn funny during our 5 Vs 4 match.. haha baoli was like giving priya killer death stares. and today she damn aggressive! haha padded weaponry brought out that hidden side of baoli today! haha

sheralyn so cute! :)

the key to not overeating.

is to not bring snacks from home. hoping tt you'd eat the snacks and not anyth else during breaks. that plan is completely and utterly RUBBISH. and FUTILE to attempt.

i would know. trust me. 8 months of doing that!

and now im like 70 bucks broke-r. plus i still owe my mummy 100 bucks. stupid shinhwa concert so ex for what. capitalising on the p inelasticity of demand. plus they know the market very small but all WILLING and quite able to buy tickets. basket.

so now i shall start a 5 dollars a day plan!
haha
can save money + spend less on food! :))

haha okay i shall try that starting..tmr!

okay byebye.

this fat body needs to sleep

7 things for the 7th mth

2006-08-01T23:47:00.000+08:00

hello! since my blog is relatively new i assume the [minute] amt of pple reading this have no clue who i am
so i shall list stuff since umay just told me she was doing them too

7 random things about me:
- i hate hot water on my face
- i love jeff corwin
- i think even numbers sound/look fat
- i wore braces from pri.3 to sec 1
- i have square front teeth
- i sleep with one arm stretched over my head
- i've been bird shitted on more than 5 times. talk abt suay

7 things that scare me
- 3 a.m. emily rose!
- cockroaches, rats lizards
- getting lost alone in a damn foreign place?
- my father in a bad mood
- scary movies.
- em i dunno alr! im qt brave!

7 songs i'm listening to
- promiscuous! melia!
- saranghaeyo. stupid ca keep listening
- hui lai
- sexyback!
- beautiful disaster
- the hardest thing
- control yourself

7 things i like the most
- umay :)
- good food!
- rainy days with no school
- sleeping
- watching a good impossibly perfect love story
- famous amos cookies
- my shorts

7 things i say the most
- i'm sure la
- are you kidding
- wahlau
- wae yo? + random korean phrases
- BHULLAR!

7 pple to do this
-umay
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2006-08-01T01:21:00.000+08:00

i like this song, or rather, the mv

Wish Me Happy Birthday

i swear he is THE BEST KISSER.

2006-08-01T00:56:00.001+08:00

woohoo im finally done! didn't think being narcissistic was so difficult. haha

kick me if you see this blog dead because i just wasted a damn nice monday to do it up, sacrificing time tt i could have used for chem or smth. hello? high opp cost alert . :)

anyhoo. thought since its so bleeding late alr, i shall try posting pictures!

stupid thing take so long. so only 1 for now. school spirit! :) my xiao gin nahs!

really really really thankful for them! taragloriameliashweecherynann+siokkkyy! made sch life just so much more bearable and mad fun :)))

wo you yu gan, wo hui yi bei zi, zhi xi huan ni

2006-07-31T19:42:00.000+08:00

hello my pretties.
i have decided to start blogging againnn.
unlike da pro guru ca, or the adorable gloria, or shweeshweee
i will..

probably just talk about mindless rubbish.

and ramble and rattle on and on
and maybe add a swoon or two about those guys.

yep. tata for now!
superdugong!